lately, I've been rather inspired not by what I'm reading, but by songs I've heard. I have a small network of friends that send me texts, IMs, Facebook posts, etc. of songs or song lyrics that they think I'll like. As they share them with me, I sometimes listen to the songs on repeat for hours, attempting to format the correct response to them. Often it's just a 'thank you,' sometimes it's more than that. The past couple of posts have focused on music I've come across, either through those outlets or on my own, that have inspired me. Not sure how long this kick will run, but it may become a strong trend for the future of this blog.
Here's the latest inspiration, followed by the song:
You’re hurting me. I don’t think you realize how much you’re hurting me. Let me try to explain it to you. It’s like a burning, a tightening, nauseating and painful, a roller coaster ride that never ends, slowly pulls into the loading zone, only to begin again. You’re like a sick disease, your words are poison in my veins. My strength is unyielding, my stubborn heart too proud to let go. I tried to end it, many times. You won’t let me, and while I promised to not get attached, to let it roll off my shoulders, I’m wooed by attacks of false hope and sweet words, only to be blindsided with her love for you. Every time we take a step closer, I let my guard down just a little, I’m hurt by it. This wasn’t supposed to happen. It was only a game. I know what I’m in for, I know it’s no good, but really, I can’t stop myself. I watch as I torment, I’m separated and torn. My friends provide comfort to deaf ears. I need answers, I need reasons. I don’t want to hold on to something that’s not there, and I refuse to continue riding this ride. It’s not fun anymore. I promised I’d never make you pick, I don’t expect you to, I don’t want you to. But, as my friend, you have to stop toying with my emotions.
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